Little Man Judah David

Sunday the 26th my gorgeous first born son turned 7 YEARS OLD!!!!! Judah, You are so incredibly special and precious to me. You are growing up to be such a loving little man! It's bittersweet and like the book I just bought for you and your sister and brother, I would keep you little but if I did I would miss out on so many things that you will experience and do as you grow older. I love your gorgeous blue/green/grey/silver color changing...

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Doubts, Anger, Beliefs

I really don't even know how to begin this post. I was talking to my mom on the way home today. I told her that I don't even know if God exists and if He does why does it seem like He is unloving. I have anxiety and depression issues which, for the most part are stabilized. Rewind. I just want to get this all out there. I don't have any idea why I try to hide it all the time. So I saw a trauma specialist back in Dec/Jan and he helped me figure some stuff out/helped me with connecting dots from my past that I never considered...

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Refocusing

I have decided to do all that I can to focus on all the positive things in my life. Sure I have a lot of problems, but who doesn't? Everyone deals with problems, everyone struggles. Everyone has some aspect of their life that is completely screwed up, but there are so many people who deal with it so well. I want to be one of those people! I am going to focus on my children, building my relationship with them more and more. I am going to focus on my schooling. I want to become a lamplighter at my school. It requires good...

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30 Things My Kids Should Know About Me. #12

#12. Describe A Typical Day In Your Current Life A typical day in my current life is hard to put on paper because so much is up in the air. Waking up at about 6 am, getting ready, going to school from 8-12 then homework or hanging out with friends until evening and spending time with my kids whenever I can on the weekdays. On the weekends I get to have my beautiful children to hang out with. I do the basics as well..... eat, sleep, brush teeth, brush hair, drink, etc etc. I am so incredibly tired right now. I have a lot of...

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30 Things My Kids Should Know About Me. #11

#11- List 10 Pet Peeves You Have. 1. Not having any privacy. Parent's knocking on the door every time I shut it to be alone for a while. 2. People who are rude and do not have common manners. ALWAYS say "Please" "Thank You" and "You're Welcome". 3. Men who don't hold doors open for women or elderly people. 4. Boogers in kids noses. Parent's get those boogers OUT! I never let my kids walk around with boogers in their nose. 5. People who try to control EVERYTHING!!! 6. Losing things. I HATE when I can't remember where I put...

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Mother/Daughter Tea and Mother's Day

On Saturday, May 11, 2013 I went to a mother/daughter tea in Thornton.  It was good, it would have been better had I not had a huge argument with the kids dad.  So my mom, myself and my daughter went up to the Golden Corral for the tea party and met up  with my sister and two of my nieces.  The "theme" was being women of hope.  To be completely honest, my head was else where. I had so much going on...

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Cast of Characters

The purpose of this blog entry is to help put faces to names of those I will be talking about in my blog.  Please be patient with me as this will be evolving as I go along.   This is me, the author of this blog. I am Carolina (a.k.a. Cari).   My son Judah David. Born May 26, 2006. He was two months premature weighing 4 lbs 9 oz. He had a heart arrhythmia and a brain bleed, but he is healthy as a...

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Happy Happy Happy Birthday Ariah Patrick Lee

Two years ago, today.. I gave birth to my third born, Mr. Ariah Patrick Lee. He was my huge child, at a month early he weighed a whopping 10lbs 13oz. If you are curious and would like to read the birth story of my beautiful boy follow the link to my old blog: http://judahsmommy.blogspot.com/2011/05/on-tuesday-10-of-may-i-woke-up-at.html I cannot believe he is an entire TWO years old. They grow WAY too fast!!! Heavily...

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Happy Joyfulness

So many things are looking up in life. My kids are amazing. School is going great. I have met some amazing new friends. I am just giddy giddy! I can't wait to expand on everything, but I know several people who read my blog that would be preachy. More to come SOON...

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